thoughts.

A thought enters the mind and we act on it or another thought says don't act on it.  Until a thought enters we can't act as there is nothing to act on.  Consiousness without a thought is like a computer without software.  The computer itself is effectively useless, it is a potential; it can't function until software is put in to tell it what to do and how to do it.  Thoughts are like that; so don't make the mistake of thinking that once self realisation has happened no thoughts will occur or that you'll be free from thoughts all the time.  There will be periods of time when you are thoughtless - indeed it happens to you now although you may not have noticed it.  But until a thought occurs - like 'I'll mow the lawn', or you happen to walk outside and see that the lawn needs mowing which triggers a thought saying 'I'd better mow the lawn' we can't we can't mow it.

In the moments when there are no thoughts it is very peaceful and in those times after realisation following the time of great desire to be free we can experience times of absolutely stillness, consiousness without any movement, not even a ripple; nothing, just pure awareness and that is beautiful - and don't forget that the desire to be free is, after all, just another desire.  But after a while we get seduced by the world again and why not?  It's a beautiful place.  It doesn't really matter whether we're thoughtless or not we just carry on with life understanding fully what we actually are, who we actually are and who we are not; it is the realisation that ends the suffering.